So, I went to the Veterans Affairs Hospital today for the first time in my life to both get enrolled into the system and to see about an old injury (yes that is my HMO, another post about health reform coming soon). Funny enough the first person I bumped into was a professional football team’s cheerleader. She was there at the hospital doing her caring part by spreading the holiday cheer to all the vets. Not knowing any better, I asked her for the directions to the administration’s office. The thing is, I couldn’t help but notice that her attitude and demeanor change from treating me like I was some young lad hanging out at the VA for the day watching over my dad to “holy shit we have veterans this young” or “eeww why is he at a VA? I guess he can’t afford real health insurance.” It kinda pissed me off, and made me feel like I was some second class citizen. A citizen that for some reason I had to be treated different. Sure I wasn’t some million dollar football star, or some three figure professional photographer that could snap a shot of her and make her famous. I wasn’t even in the same class as some slick greased hair back sports agent or big time exec. Nope, I’m just a regular dude that’s entitled to free health care for the next five years since my time of discharge. I can afford real health insurance (and after the day I had at the VA, I just might get some) but I’ve chosen not too.
So I continued to stroll down these long maze like hallways. Most of the workers I saw were young, healthy, good-looking people that for no reason at all would not look one in the eye. I wondered why? Maybe the eye thing is just a downtown urbanite thing that I’m not used to. I’ve noticed to stop and look someone in the eye and say hello in New York is enough to get mace sprayed in the face. Anyways where was I? Oh yeah and of course walking down these hallways, I saw all the various war veterans who were assigned to the hospital. Most I noticed were from the Korea and Vietnam War era. A few from Desert Storm, and a couple here and there from my era. It’s funny, if you know what to look for you can spot the differences between each generation of vet. Korean War vets usually dress old dude casual. Almost like a golfer from the early eighties. A lot of shorts and tube socks while sportin low top vans. Kinda what Mister Rogers dressed like, minus the Cardigan. While the Vietnam Vets are usually all sporting tattoos, Harley Davidson shirts, black boots, and jeans, while wearing goatees and beards. A lot of pony tails and longer hair. Almost every one of them carried a knife or leatherman tool. You can usually spot the Desert Storm guys because they’re the youngest of the old. Usually around their mid to late forties. They’re the funniest ones though because they got to experience the military when the old ways started changing into a newer more politically correct time. They’re usually seen enjoying the fun of reciting event by event the shenanigans they all got to pull off before the military changed its reputation to the choir boy act. The “sharp but naive shoulders” work here motto! (Using best Gomer Pile voice—”What’s a hooker Sarge?”) And finally there’s us. The Afghan and Iraq War vets. The newbies. We’re the ones that are listening to our IPODs while waiting in line, or possibly reading a college mathematics book while waiting for our number to be called. Were the one’s that instead of a walker or cane, our guy’s have got the aluminum prosthetic legs or arms from all the road side bombs over there. I say guys but I mean that in a collective way, cause I am not for a minute forgetting about the women vets out there or the ones that I saw at the hospital today.
It’s funny while I could hardly get any worker to look me in the eye today, every vet that I passed did. Minding my business, a bunch had striked up conversations with me. I even watched for one’s number to be called while he and his buddy went out side to grab an ice mocha frappochino from the Starbucks stand (I’ll tell you there’s nothing funnier than seeing two badass biker dudes drinking such a drink). The conversations were everything from the war, to Obama’s address to the nation last night, to Britney Spears and Lindsey Lohan.
It’s funny cause as normal and abnormal as some of these guys were, I couldn’t help but feel that most of these fellas have drifted into a void in America that has long been forgotten. Now I love my country so I’m not going to go on a rant about this great nation but I couldn’t help but feel a familiar feeling that I had felt six years ago. I was stationed in the south finishing my paramedic certification by doing ride alongs with the local EMS. Those weeks we spent most of the time shuttling around the poor, the despaired, and the forgotten (mind you in this country poor and forgotten pretty much go hand and hand). Our daily routine was to pick up a certain old lady from her “retirement” home and to take her to the hospital for her dialysis. Every time I went to that old folks home, I couldn’t help and notice the understaffed nurses, the horrible smell of unwashed and unchanged people and sheets. It smelled like people dying in there, not necessarily death mind you because there is a difference. Now I am DEFINITELY not saying that is what it was like today at the VA but I couldn’t help but I couldn’t help by thinking about these workers I saw remembering that it was hard for me to look a lot of those folks directly in the eyes back then too. We got in and we got out. I think that was mostly because deep down inside I was ashamed that this was how we treated our elderly in our society. That families were actually leaving their parents to die ignored, alone, and forgotten.
Which brings us back to why the look the other way? I believe it’s the same reason people steer clear of a homeless man on the street, or why during times of economic crisis and a losing war we care more about Tiger Woods and his marital problems than what the President said last night during his speech (for all you that didn’t know we’re surging 30,000 troops to Afghanistan).
It’s a need to look the other way. A distraction from what’s right in front of you. To coin the fictional character Don Draper from Mad Men when he gives the secret to advertising, “it’s an escape! An escape from our daily lives. It’s a way of telling ourselves that no matter what your doing……..it’s O.K. ………. You are going to be O.K.”
It’s either that or maybe I’m just really paranoid from all the PTSD!
Vagrant
****DISCLAIMER—-Note while I mention the Korean through the Afghan and Iraq war, I do not discount nor have forgotten World War II Veterans nor Veteran’s of conflicts such as Grenada, Panama, Kosovo, USS Cole, Kobar Towers, Somalia, or any foreign skirmishes where our nation’s troops were engaged in ground, naval, or aerial combat classified or unclassified.—–DISCLAIMER****

































